The Void

ive only just realized how contagious sadness is

ive come to understand why i was sad about us

why i was missing about you

why i had sad

but my sad was just yours

i wanted something of you because i missed you initially

but one thing which i remembered the most is sadness

the sadness of you getting shit faced on my birthday when i didnt drink

the sadness of you being a bitch to me and crying freaking out at jasons because you were worried about it being just us forever, me and you

ever think how it felt to be the boyfriend, whos girlfriend is crying because shes afaid of being with you forever, christ i hadnt thought about forever. why did you jump there? why did you think of forever?

or when you got me no gift for my birthday…not a card or a cake…why didnt i end things then?

why didnt i end things when you were constantly selfish?

what we had was sad

not for you, you got all the good

mine was sad

you were interesting and inspirational but there was a certain sorrow in the air

everything in my life has been good now

i have met a wonderful girl, and shes wonderfully smart, and cute and normal and fun. just great actually

but i have approached it all with a sorrow

i cought it from you

im recognizing that now,

and rejecting it

im taking it back

simple, really

what was mine, now is again

theres a battle to come when you come back crying